Mixed feelings-update

Its been a year without me writing something here. Lets jump right into it, its been a long time of reflections, ups and downs of this life.

2016 is upon us and for me i am no longer the small woman i used to be, the big three 0 is upon me this year and i must say i feel the pressure . I feel the pressure from family and friends who feel and believe its now over due for me to settle down and raise a family of my own. My question ladies and gentlemen is whether everyone including me is supposed to do that and lead such a life. Statistics have shown that women are more than the men, does that not mean there are exceptions where some women fail to find just the right guy to settle with. Maybe , just maybe the guy is dead or he was just never born. It is just a question ladies and gentlemen not taking away anything from the idea of marriage.

The writer has all the respect for marriage, especially functional marriages where a family is raised with all the love. Recently there has been a surge of people filling for divorce just 5 months of getting married. To me this is sign, there is need to take a step back and correct whatever has gone wrong in the marriage institution. Do not get me wrong , ladies and gentlemen, i do wish to find the prince who will sweep me off my feet and the wedding bells ring, however i am worried if ever that is real. Every woman including me wants and needs  a successful guy who loves them and build a family with . My worry is, there seem to be a lot of pressure at the door of marriage. Pressure of people in marriage wanting to get out and those outside wanting to get into marriage. The sad part of all this is , these two never stop to exchange notes, if ever there is an exchange of notes, these two are never completely honest with each other. Hence we are in this predicament where a few of us are brave enough to want more than just one day of happiness where the family gathers and ululate muroora kana mkwasha auuya mumusha. Not to be judged by the feeling of the moment. I wait for the day where all my unanswered questions are answered , i wait for the day where its my turn to cross over to the other side with pride and joy knowing i have made a choice which will bring me happiness and joy and I bringing joy to the other person too.

 Let me settle down for now and be back with more interesting things that are happening in Zimbabwe, the many churches, the many prophets and so on..........